| wow, things change. |
[Jul. 9th, 2008|07:52 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | broken social scene - pacific theme | ] |
i don't even know how to begin this entry.
a lot of things have changed since i last wrote.
-gabe and i are no longer together
-another gabe and i are now, kinda
-i quit my job/got fired
-fucked up the end of the semester at school, fucked up my summer class, decided to take another year off
-lost hobo
-found hobo
-resorted to drugs
i think i'm depressed but i'm not quite sure.
but tomorrow i will probably feel just fine.
after i have a sip.
i'm starting to wonder if your excessive creative energy, that used to always threaten and annoy me, may have actually been good for me. maybe i fed off of it. i haven't picked my camera up in so long, it's sad. i hate that.
sigh.
me as of late:
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[Apr. 18th, 2008|12:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | mtv bullshit | ] |
why did that man behind me on the treadmill have to be wearing a NYU shirt?
well, at least i wasn't dumped 2 weeks after giving birth, and still living with my ex-boyfriend in an apartment. TRUE LIFE, mtv. oh yes.
things really aren't so bad. and i'm very lucky to have what i have. sometimes, i think i need to take a step back and realize the world really isn't falling down on me. but i also want some sort of... reassurance. i'm afraid to get too attached because i don't want to get hurt. i guess i just want to feel safe. |
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| okay, so maybe it's not really the 16th... |
[Apr. 16th, 2008|05:04 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | james taylor - country road | ] |
today has been lovely. i made a really exciting outfit, haha. then, i walked around for a bit and took some photographs. here they are, as random as they may be...
that's my porch's roof.
completely unedited, haha.
i love my house!! it's the one in the middle. you know, the best. :]
sweet, sweet superchill.
i don't feel like going to class, but i have to. i may have created a design... but i have a feeling it's the same as kathleen's? i hope not. sigh.
i can't wait for my workout tonight! |
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| we were 17 again. |
[Apr. 15th, 2008|12:09 am] |
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| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ingrid michaelson - the hat | ] |
i had a good day, despite sleeping through my only two classes of the day. i feel like everyweek i skip at least one art history and one focused inquiry... and i don't even mean to! it's just because i sleep so much.
didn't do much at all and it felt so nice. i hung out in my room with hobo and babycat and watched animal planet. talked to gabriel some. did some research on my space project... and i still have no ideas. sigh. i went to lowes and bought some flowers for the house! our fence got fixed. and, i went to kroger. got lots of good food. :] oh, and i bought some ground coffee (none of that instant crap!) and it's super good, i just had some.
i've been messing around with my zune, and finished tranferring my itunes library to it. and i downloaded weezer's discography. turned on my lights around my window, hanging out with babycat on the bed. listening to ingrid michaelson and she is suprisingly not all that bad. oh, and incense. :]
i need to find a way to enjoy my space research project. every idea i come up with, my teacher tells me i need to find a new one. sigh. it's a project that heavily emphasizes forms of sculpture; something i have never done, and i'm already having trouble just thinking of ideas. oh well. it's our last project and i want to go out with a bang... so i really need to focus and figure out something. i think my best bet is probably a free-form, experimental, weird shape thing... instead of trying to render stuff, i guess. so much for my panda and his balloon.
i'm looking forward to doing a LOT more photography. here are some old (and not very good) photos i took a while back with sam's macro.
siiighhhh... i need to shoot again, SOON! before this weekend. i will. |
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| koala bears can be grouchy. |
[Apr. 14th, 2008|06:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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| | broken social scene - handjobs for the holidays | ] |
oh, wow!
i was just researching about inflatable art, and i stumbled across this:
http://www.wctv.tv/APNews/headlines/17447604.html
joshua allen harris, an artist living in new york city, creates inflatable animals out of garbage bags and tapes them to the vent-things for subways you see on sidewalks. it starts off as a bag and then it morphs into a giraffe. awesome.
it would be super cool if i saw that the next time i go to new york... which is less than a week and 5 days. i'm counting!
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